I do. I hate that most life advice involves it. I hate "not black and white, but gray", I hate "in moderation". I am sure it helps many people but it means nothing to me. I know I sound so stupid and naive. But I cannot live my life in that way, oscillating back and forth until I find a vague mushy idea of how to do things. I would like a goal.
For example: "don't be so hard on yourself." Alright, then. How hard should I still be on myself? When do I let myself go free, and when do I draw back? - seeing as letting oneself go is especially addictive. And when I let myself go, I disappoint others. Okay, so take the hint and crawl back to the center. What center? What do I crawl back to that is tangible besides complete self-loathing? If I ever let go of myself again, I will disappoint people as I have countless times before. You must understand there is no in-between for me. It doesn't exist. Give me a goal, goddamnit!
Living in the horrible gray mush is so upsetting. There's a Guster song called "What You Wish For" that has the line "Not black and white / but where the colors are". I think I like the colors. There are infinite colors, but you can name each one of them. "Aim for #ff78d2." I'm sure there are little variations of it in different programs, but it leaves much less room for error than gray. And I can work towards that.